*bilchyfizz__________________ i cant find myself
/Friday, October 26, 2007
/16:21

yesterday was too much.

haiz... or maybe i juz cnt take it anymore. evryday is a battle of emotions dat i always try to keep under control. i dun know wat to do anymore. i've tried.. i've tried to be mre understanding, more rational, more patient. but hw cud i do so if u're not helpin?

u'll fire up due to d smallest n silliest of reasons. i've had enuf. in every situation i'll be d one at fault. yes, im egoistic. yes, im stubborn. yes, im all dat. but dat was wat i was.. WAS. no one can change frm devil to angel in a split second. it takes time.. i need time to change. but i dare say im changin. wat abt urself? i've tried not to add oil to ur fire wen we quarrell. but things always went wrong. wateva i did was always not rite. URGH. juz cuz sumthin i do is not d way u wanted it, or liked it, its wrong. it cnt be dat way... i cnt talk ur way, i cnt werk ur way, i cnt think ur way, I DUN WANT TO DO THINGS UR WAY.



to love a person is to accept em. i accepted u.. but u?

xxmuackxx
___________da story endz like this..


/Thursday, June 21, 2007
/02:26

learn to swallow dat emotions..


FIGHT!


its d only way.

xxmuackxx
___________da story endz like this..


/Thursday, June 07, 2007
/22:39

why did it cme to dis..? how? i didnt expect dis frm u.. do u know hw dissappointed i was at d sight of dat? how cud u?

why..?

my mind is all messed up nw. my heart, well... im always tryin to ignore it but to no avail. wat am i to do?

i do realise d things i've done to u.. but i need ur help too. do u know how hard it is fer me? though ur intentions are always good, its too much of a pressure for me.. i cnt take it anymre.. i cnt.. i need ur help.

i dun wanna pull u dwn.. but ure too fast up.

hold my hand.. pls. walk beside me.



Baby will you return to love me
After the night becomes the day
After tonight begins to fade

xxmuackxx
___________da story endz like this..


/Wednesday, May 30, 2007
/02:23

im hvin a bad, bad time...

i need a place to relax

god help me.

xxmuackxx
___________da story endz like this..


/01:52

hello..


been away fer too long. had d dear old com in fer repair. been bz wit werk. i was accused of being a workaholic! -shakes head- hv no idea if dats true. i was never one though.

but maybe.. juz maybe.. things hv changed nw. god knows. maybe it is true. i no longer hv time fer d things dat matters a lot to me. i feel guilty fer a lot of events dat happened around me lately. since d strt of all this. nt dat i regret, im tryin my best.. im always tryin.. really.

or maybe im juz making up all these excuses. maybe i do hv time. maybe?


haiz. i need a rest.

xxmuackxx
___________da story endz like this..


/Wednesday, October 04, 2006
/09:40

yesterday was spent cooking ayam masak merah at zamin's. haha.. kekecohan. but we had fun tho.. sempat tgk kau punya cilok lak tu.. lol. after dat off to ecp fer giordano bbq. took a bus frm clementi. gosh.. 2 freakin hrs sia. supposed to meet at 1800hrs but tot cud reach at 1900hrs but end up reached at 2000hrs. haha.. oh well..

was damn tired actually n tot of cancelling d plan but i miss kak nora sooo much. so yea.. n anyhoos, kak siti n nurul cnt make it.. bummer.

met up wit dhan after dat at mcD ard 2200hrs.. went hme. slept at 0300hrs.

xxmuackxx
___________da story endz like this..


/Tuesday, September 26, 2006
/17:38

gosh... itz been more than a month.

had d skul hols n hv been bz werkin, tryin ta earn extra $ to cover up fer ma previous lack of $$$ in my paycheck. hahaa... well, now dat skuls startin again.. i wanna giv it anotha shot. gonna try really hard not to slack again. (i noe.. i noe.. i've been sayin dat fer years) but hey. u fail, u try again. rite? -grinz-

hmm.. n d fasting month is here again.. selamat berpuase my frenz. hope we cud have some time togetha again n break fast ramai-ramai. heh.

n not to mention there'd been a couple of changes here n there.. good n bad. n there's gonna be lots more.. lotsa lotsa. (",)

xxmuackxx
___________da story endz like this..


/Wednesday, August 30, 2006
/03:14

i didnt know dat d first bike was called a hobbyhorse.



and i didnt know dat one cud actually fall aslp while soul kissing.

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aaahahahahaha...

xxmuackxx
___________da story endz like this..




_____B I L C H Y_____

I'm shy. sensitive. gentle. patient.
I'm exuberant. lively. exhibitionist.
I hide the considerable depths of my character under a
cloak of frivolity.
Sometimes I make no sense.
Sometimes I'm perfect.
Sometimes I'm a mess.

Narcissist.
If I don't love me, who will?

I do not give myself easily and are sometimes accounted cold.
If I'm deceived my anger is terrible.
If disillusioned, I do not forgive.


Try figuring me out. You never can.
I am all extremes...



I.N.T.I.M.A.T.E.S.

LAF
ayu
bubz
eila
fad
fara
horny bitch
nad
ns
runn
shashi-mee
syafiq
syira
van
wan khai
yan han



h.u.s.h. ___ h.u.s.h.