*bilchyfizz__________________ i cant find myself
/Sunday, October 17, 2004
/15:21

*sobs* Why...? Why does dis always happen to me? Urgh! Fadhil sent me a message on frenster which goes like dis- "I knew it!! u realli are a minah!! Muahaha!! Well, juz wanna say take care girl... Woooooo.... IM SO HAPI FOR U!!! MINAH MINAH MINAH...!! I HATE MINAHS!!! THX TO U, I FIGURE OUT WHAT LIFE REALLI MEANS. :D What IT MEANS TO BE LOVED!!! I mean, FOR REAL. HAHA.... GOING TO DO A LOT OF SHOPPING!!! Take care BABE. SLAMAT BERPUASA. DUN HAVE TO WASTE MY MONEY LIAO!!!" Wat d fuck! Wat does he mean by dat? 'I noe wat it means to be loved. Like, fer real..' Hey. I dun lie bout my feelings okai. Neva! When I say I luv sumone, I really do. I did luv him... I really did. But he denied all dat...he still thinks I used him fer his money. Hey cum on la... I noe loads of other loaded guys. If I had wanted money, I'd dump him a LONG time ago. Haiz... *cry* Its been quite along time since I had a gd cry. And I dun wanna cry... Its hurts. Its hurts too much. I dun even noe why Im cryin. Why shud I even care bout wat he says? But his words really stings.. *wipes tears* Urgh. *cry*

xxmuackxx
___________da story endz like this..




_____B I L C H Y_____

I'm shy. sensitive. gentle. patient.
I'm exuberant. lively. exhibitionist.
I hide the considerable depths of my character under a
cloak of frivolity.
Sometimes I make no sense.
Sometimes I'm perfect.
Sometimes I'm a mess.

Narcissist.
If I don't love me, who will?

I do not give myself easily and are sometimes accounted cold.
If I'm deceived my anger is terrible.
If disillusioned, I do not forgive.


Try figuring me out. You never can.
I am all extremes...



I.N.T.I.M.A.T.E.S.

LAF
ayu
bubz
eila
fad
fara
horny bitch
nad
ns
runn
shashi-mee
syafiq
syira
van
wan khai
yan han



h.u.s.h. ___ h.u.s.h.