*bilchyfizz__________________ i cant find myself
/Saturday, November 20, 2004
/23:24

Yesternite when I reach hme, I ask ayah wat time we'll be leaving for Johor today... Then he like surprised dat I'm going too. Dunno why he thought I'm nt going cuz dat day when I told him I dun wanna go, he said muz go. Then I was like 'Oh ok, I dun need to go eh?' Hehe... But then he said, no I muz go. But I told him I dun wanna go... Adek also dun wanna go but ibu told him to go. So he reluctantly pack his bag. Hehe. Rus was vry sad dat I'm going to Johor... He said he's gonna miz me vry much. At first I thought of calling him to let him noe I'm nt going... But then I didnt cuz I hv a plan in mind. I wanna surprise him today by going his hse. Hehe... So, dis morning I acted like I was really going to Johor as planned. I msged him early in d morning... I even wear red top, faded jeans n my white shoes cuz he likes it when I wear like dat. Later I found out dat he's goin town in d afternoon wit his frenz. At first I panic a bit cuz I scared later I reach his hse he go out already. I made a lot of different plans seh. Hehe... All d way to his hse my heart is pounding. I was kinda excited. I've neva done sumthin like dis fer my guy before... There's a lot of risk I hv to take. But I really wanna show him dat I lurve him vry much. I need him to know dat.. Well, when I reach his hse, I wait at d staircase outside his door n msg him. I told him if he were to hv 1 wish dat wud cum true now, wat wud it be. n he said dat he want all his loved ones to be hapi. Well, dats not exactly d ans I want, so I ask him dun he wanna meet me?.. He said of course, n he'd do anything to be able to meet me right then. N so... I told him dat he's vry lucky cuz all he hv to do to make his wish cum true is to open his front door. N boy was he fast.. His front door openned slowly n his head peeked out. Haha.. So cute seh... He was so shocked when he saw me. N he looks kinda excited n puzzled at d same time. I cud tell he was touched. Then I went to his room n there I treated d wound on his right elbow n changed d dressing fer him. He looked at me wif a serious face n said dat nobody has ever taken good care of him before except fer his parents. He had a kinda look on his face dat I cant describe when he look at me n said dat. N i felt so hapi... I've neva felt happier before. I lurve him so much n I want him to realise dat. He cancelled going to town wif his frenz n spent d whole day wit me. Dat day ws one of d happiest day of my life. Throughout d whole day, I hv dis vry wonderful feeling inside of me n I cud feel a kind of connection between us. I really cudnt describe it but one thing i know fer sure, it was totally wonderful... N I think its called LOVE. (",)

xxmuackxx
___________da story endz like this..




_____B I L C H Y_____

I'm shy. sensitive. gentle. patient.
I'm exuberant. lively. exhibitionist.
I hide the considerable depths of my character under a
cloak of frivolity.
Sometimes I make no sense.
Sometimes I'm perfect.
Sometimes I'm a mess.

Narcissist.
If I don't love me, who will?

I do not give myself easily and are sometimes accounted cold.
If I'm deceived my anger is terrible.
If disillusioned, I do not forgive.


Try figuring me out. You never can.
I am all extremes...



I.N.T.I.M.A.T.E.S.

LAF
ayu
bubz
eila
fad
fara
horny bitch
nad
ns
runn
shashi-mee
syafiq
syira
van
wan khai
yan han



h.u.s.h. ___ h.u.s.h.