*bilchyfizz__________________ i cant find myself
/Thursday, December 16, 2004
/23:55

Dis mornin, Rus went fer a yearly check-up at NUH. When he sent me hme juz nw, he shared his most deepest secret wit me. Nobody else except his family knows abt dis. On d way to d bus-stop, he asked me whether I know anyone who's born with any defects. I told him dat I had a relative who got an extra thumb on one of his hands like him, n dat I myself was born wit a twisted neck. But nw ok already ar... After seeing my reaction on dat qn, he told me dat he was born a defect baby. His windpipe was short n didnt connect wit his lungs, n hiz small intestines was all tangled up n had to be cut. So, he gt a vry short intestines. Dat is y he gt a small body cuz his intestines didnt fuction properly. Dats d reason fer all d scars on his torso. Its nt becuz of BMX. Hmm... I'm cool wit dat. I mean, I dun see him as a defect guy cuz of that. Nt evryone is blessed wit a perfectly normal body. Wat really matters is his heart- his character. Rus is a wonderful guy... I dun care dat his body is nt perfect. My luv fer him is still d same. I will continue luving him wit all ma heart n soul. (",)

xxmuackxx
___________da story endz like this..




_____B I L C H Y_____

I'm shy. sensitive. gentle. patient.
I'm exuberant. lively. exhibitionist.
I hide the considerable depths of my character under a
cloak of frivolity.
Sometimes I make no sense.
Sometimes I'm perfect.
Sometimes I'm a mess.

Narcissist.
If I don't love me, who will?

I do not give myself easily and are sometimes accounted cold.
If I'm deceived my anger is terrible.
If disillusioned, I do not forgive.


Try figuring me out. You never can.
I am all extremes...



I.N.T.I.M.A.T.E.S.

LAF
ayu
bubz
eila
fad
fara
horny bitch
nad
ns
runn
shashi-mee
syafiq
syira
van
wan khai
yan han



h.u.s.h. ___ h.u.s.h.