*bilchyfizz__________________ i cant find myself

/Wednesday, August 17, 2005

/13:45

those three little words u said to me dat day really breaks ma heart. it still hurts till now. i cried every nite bcuz of it. i noe exactly wat u mean.. n dats y it hurts so much. i dunno hw much longer i can take d pain..

hw could u..? y did u insist on gettin me back then n sayin u choose wrong now? do u noe how much dat hurts? i noe im not anythin like her.. i dun wear skirts, let alone short skirts. i dun have rebonded hair, n im far frm feminine. but u noe dats me.. u noe dat before ure wit me. so y do u still choose me then? so that u could hurt me now? y do u lurve me? i lurve u fer who u are.. not wat u wear. hv i ever tried to change ur dressing style? hv i ever bug u to wear like sumthin else dat ure not? well, maybe i hv... i cnt remember. but i stop when i noe u dun like it n neva bug u again rite. if u feel dat u really choose wrongly, then go ahead n correct ur wrong. n i'll regret sacrificing all those things fer u.

i really really lurve ya u noe... i lurve u sooo much n u mean a lot to me.

i dunno hw to tell u this. i juz wanna let u noe hw i feel.. do u really mean wat u said? cuz i hv a feelin u're saying it straight frm ur heart. if its really true... well, i dunno.. im really really hurt by wat u said.

u cut me deep hunny.. u cut me real deep.

xxmuackxx
___________da story endz like this..

_____B I L C H Y_____

I'm shy. sensitive. gentle. patient.
I'm exuberant. lively. exhibitionist.
I hide the considerable depths of my character under a
cloak of frivolity.
Sometimes I make no sense.
Sometimes I'm perfect.
Sometimes I'm a mess.

Narcissist.
If I don't love me, who will?

I do not give myself easily and are sometimes accounted cold.
If I'm deceived my anger is terrible.
If disillusioned, I do not forgive.

Try figuring me out. You never can.
I am all extremes...

I.N.T.I.M.A.T.E.S.

LAF
ayu
bubz
eila
fad
fara
horny bitch
nad
ns
runn
shashi-mee
syafiq
syira
van
wan khai
yan han

h.u.s.h. ___ h.u.s.h.