*bilchyfizz__________________ i cant find myself
/Saturday, March 11, 2006
/21:48

i dunno whut it is but sumthin is definitely gg on here.. dun ask me whut. i hv no idea... its juz dat there's dis naggy feeling in ma heart dats bothering me n it wont go away. but i dun wanna start my wild imagination- mayb im juz being paranoid? or its juz a normal reaction ppl go thru due to the things dats happening ard em. wateva.. i dun like dis. not at all.

well, anyhoos.. today is d first day of ivp. we won bronze fer pattern. -shakes head- very dissappointed sia.. i knew we cud do better n get a gold. blame it on ma sidekick- it sucks (i lost ma balance on d second kick). urgh! n fer sparring... well... lets juz say ma worst fear came true- i kena whack. gosh... i really wanted to win d first fight n get at least a bronze. but guess im juz not gd enuf uhh...

ok ok... i sux. so there.

didnt meet rus today cuz.. as always, shyte juz HAVE to happen. so many changes of plan- bleargh. so stayed ard at ntu till ard 2000hrs plus, then went hme in shafiq's car. well, dunno whether its his car, but hey- he's driving! haha..

ok ppl.. im extremely tired today. gonna hv an early nite. rus still hvnt called yet. -haiz-





(y am i feeling dis way? its..... scary.)

xxmuackxx
___________da story endz like this..




_____B I L C H Y_____

I'm shy. sensitive. gentle. patient.
I'm exuberant. lively. exhibitionist.
I hide the considerable depths of my character under a
cloak of frivolity.
Sometimes I make no sense.
Sometimes I'm perfect.
Sometimes I'm a mess.

Narcissist.
If I don't love me, who will?

I do not give myself easily and are sometimes accounted cold.
If I'm deceived my anger is terrible.
If disillusioned, I do not forgive.


Try figuring me out. You never can.
I am all extremes...



I.N.T.I.M.A.T.E.S.

LAF
ayu
bubz
eila
fad
fara
horny bitch
nad
ns
runn
shashi-mee
syafiq
syira
van
wan khai
yan han



h.u.s.h. ___ h.u.s.h.